Help!

[WhyDoesOne]

Well, this post will be quite the long so for that I apologize. Im 22 years old and am in the middle of a divorce. I got married on September 10th 2004 after my fiance and I learned she was pregnant. Things were very rocky in the beginning as neither of us had strengthened our relationship with the Lord before we took our vows. I was not a great husband, I fell into a bad stint of binge drinking and abuse talk when drunk about a year into our marriage. She at this time sought the Lord very hard and encouraged me to give up drinking, take part in church, go to counseling. I went to counseling with her but nothing ever came of it. Our relationship came to a hault last April when she left after a series of unpleasant events. After she left I was unfaithful and started a relationship with a girl but a month or so in, I hit my wall, I have not drank in over four months and am in recovery counseling to become a whole person. She also, after she left began seeing someone and was intimate with them. I try very hard to give this over to God and trust that everything hes doing in my life, since I am now acting inside of his will is for the best. My wife has really back slid though and is still in this very unhealthy relationship with this twice divorced, father of three, ex convict, 26 year old. I miss her, and have a false sense of mourning because the family unit I miss was never in place anyway. I do realize now the potential of the relationship and do not take for granted her efforts to save me and what a truely amazing person she really is. It hurts me so bad, and my beautiful son on top of everything, not seeing him drives me mad. The thought of this guy, who my ex now lives with spending time with my son is enough to make me sick. I pray, but I am human and very impatient. Please help. Although, Im not even sure what Im asking for here. Thanks .

[crossway7]

I can understand much of what your going through. I too have experienced the chastisement of God. You can see circumstances as Gods way of getting our attention or we can let the situation make us bitter. When God chastised me my wife and two boys were gone for awhile before I knew were they were. It is very long and unnessary. What I can tell you look to the cross. It's power is real. To those that are perishing it is foolishness and to those being saved the power of God. The cross is your responsibility to carry for your family. You are to lay your life down for your wife as Christ did the church. You need to ask God for wisdom in carrying your won cross. It is not pleasant. But shameful, agonizing, unpleasant, your mocked, mis-understood it is experiencing the death of Christ that may experience the life of Christ. You see God's way is the cross it involves death of all that is not of Christ so God in return gets glory from resurrection. You suffer that you may know Him and his resurrection power. The power of the cross. You are experiencing the beattitudes. Poor in spirit, broken, meekness and more...You may not see it now but the narrow way of the cross is blessed. For you will soon see and hear God. He uses the cross to make it safe for you to see and hear Him. He uses the cross to destroy pride in you and me. He is humbling you. Do not get bitter! Ask God to reveal sin at this time. He will bring Godly sorrow that will bring you to your knees. Repent turn from what the pain is telling you to name as a sin nail it to the cross and recieve Gods Grace. Do not become ignorant of your situation. The cross is foolish to many reading this. Do not reject the cross nor it's power. Your situation will change when you follow Christ and the way of the cross! Well, this post will be quite the long so for that I apologize. Im 22 years old and am in the middle of a divorce. I got married on September 10th 2004 after my fiance and I learned she was pregnant. Things were very rocky in the beginning as neither of us had strengthened our relationship with the Lord before we took our vows. I was not a great husband, I fell into a bad stint of binge drinking and abuse talk when drunk about a year into our marriage. She at this time sought the Lord very hard and encouraged me to give up drinking, take part in church, go to counseling. I went to counseling with her but nothing ever came of it. Our relationship came to a hault last April when she left after a series of unpleasant events. After she left I was unfaithful and started a relationship with a girl but a month or so in, I hit my wall, I have not drank in over four months and am in recovery counseling to become a whole person. She also, after she left began seeing someone and was intimate with them. I try very hard to give this over to God and trust that everything hes doing in my life, since I am now acting inside of his will is for the best. My wife has really back slid though and is still in this very unhealthy relationship with this twice divorced, father of three, ex convict, 26 year old. I miss her, and have a false sense of mourning because the family unit I miss was never in place anyway. I do realize now the potential of the relationship and do not take for granted her efforts to save me and what a truely amazing person she really is. It hurts me so bad, and my beautiful son on top of everything, not seeing him drives me mad. The thought of this guy, who my ex now lives with spending time with my son is enough to make me sick. I pray, but I am human and very impatient. Please help. Although, Im not even sure what Im asking for here. Thanks .

[twistedLinen]

i don't know what to say or advice.. I just whispered a prayer for you!

God bless