My Life Is A Disaster!

[TaffLass]

I am 21 years old and I have been brought up in a christian family, I have always gone to church for as far back as I can remember.

At the age of 18 I fell pregnant, I had been with my long term partner 4 years, however 5 months into my pregnancy my partner decided he couldn't get his head around the fact he was going to be a father & left me.

I have a beautiful son now who is 2 years old who I have so far brought up on my own. During my last few months of my pregnancy I turned to God in a way I never had done before for strength to get me through the the fear of labour and being a parent at such a young age.

My son was born and 6 months later, I got baptised, my relationship with God was as strong as it had ever been and everything was great.

I dont know why but for some reason it all turned around a few months later, I met up with a new group of friends, I started drinking a lot of alcohol, and shall we say becoming a bit promiscious.

Well this behavious has come back and bit me on the bottom because after a one night stand I have discovered I am pregnant yet again.

I feel an absolute disgrace to God & to my family, Im so ashamed of myself. I have repented and appologised to god every day since I found out, but I'm just terribly paranoid that God isn't going to be so forgiving this time.

I truley am sorry, and I have learned my lesson, I'm terribly scared about having to go through this again all on my own but I know I can cope if my relationship with God is back where it should be.

[larry]

My dear, dear sister in the Lord. Just finished talking to you on chat, and what a blessing that was for me. I believe now that you can overcome all the things in your life that have hurt you. Always remember that God said, "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." He loves you at all times, and will be there for you at this time too.

God tells us to come to Him in Hebrews 4:16. "Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need."

God bless you TaffLass as you come back to walking with God in the way He wants you to. Glorify God in all you do in Jesus' name, and you will realize peace like you've never know. Thank you for coming here to us, and I look forward to talking to you again on chat soon, but I think it was God that brought you for sure - larry :)

[godslove]

Ps 51:1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight:
that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7 ¶ Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
14 ¶ Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.
16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

..............God bless

[brentk]

Well TaffLass, that's a disaster with a silver lining. Who will your children grow up to be? You just never know...
Know this...if you are faithful to confess your sins he is faithful to forgive them. Remember, when you repent and are contrite before the Lord, asking true forgiveness for you sins, he will not turn you away. The shed blood of Jesus was shed for this purpose - so that we have a ready remedy to our killer sins. Just trust and obey.

On another subject, I've been married for 12 years. 5 years ago my wife committed adultery with one man for sure, perhaps 3 others. I confronted her, she said she was sorry and I decided to forgive her.

In June, we had a pipe break inside the house - flooded it out.
I went out to get a hotel for us and our dogs. When I returned she was gone and so was quite a bit of stuff from the house.
Over the last few weeks I've been able to find out that she's in love with another man out in AZ, and that's where she went. BTW - he's married too, and trying to put his marriage back together.
All the while she's doing this she's saying that God is blessing and providing, he released her from her marriage, and He just more than approves of what she;s done.
Me -I'm just the bag of 12 year old garbage that she tossed out without a second thought.

How's that for a disaster. I'm here alone at my wits end.

[hisredeemed]

Let's see, Moses was a murderer, David an adulterer AND a murderer, Abraham a liar, Noah slept with a daughter-in-law and NONE of them had the cleansing Blood of Jesus. God forgave them.

Where does your situation top any of that? You have the Blood of Jesus.

I had two children by 18 by 2 different fathers. I know the feelings you have very well.

You can't out-sin the limitless grace of God. Can you try His patience? Yes, but you'd have to really be on a roll, but He still forgives.

You are paying the price for falling away from God. Sin will always cost you but I have a really good feeling you wont be going in that direction any time soon.

Remember, although God forgives it is you that opens the door to consequences. His mercy and forgiveness are free but sin always demands a payment---just ask Jesus!

You are now a mother and cannot be living a life that makes you 'feel better'. Your kids are going to grow up and ask you questions and, trust me, it will be mortifying!

God is there and always will be. The only one that moves away is you. Trust Him to pick up the pieces again. It's what He does best!