joseph isaiah40
09-07-2006, 01:43 AM
I have just rededcated my life to christ I have been saved for 19 years but have tryed to do every thing in my own power I was on fire for the lord when at 18 I asked jesus to be lord of my life,shortly after I met a wounderful christain girl a year later we were married six months in I could no longer live under the same roof as her so just as I am going to ask for a divorce she turns up pregnet,I wanted to do the right thing so I grined and bear it.four years after that we had another girl,at times it looked like we would make it as a couple my walking by faith had turned into how can i do this on my own wisdom,in 2001 it looked good the kids would both be in school full time so she had a full time job we had a place with three bed room life looked good at lest now we could pay off so bills,then along came our third daughter my kids are all blessing to me,we would always use the word divorce in fights but i would say to her that it (divorce) would not fix anything we would still have to deal with each other,so 5 day before our 17th year wedding date she tells me she is done she gives me the ring and says Im divorcing you.
my first thoughts were great here comes wine woman and song this will be great I have been faithfull to her all this time,...then something happend...I ran to God I fell on my face I started praying all day long I continued reading the bible 1hr a day or more ....two days after she asked for it God healed me.
1 I could now see her and see how lovely she is, were before all i saw when i looked at her was unpaid bills
2 the holy spirit showed me that the whole time we were married I was trying to fit my wife (who is a strong christain)into a mold of a worldly girl and she would resist I would get mad I did not understand how to give love not as the world gives love, but by giving my self to her unselfisly
3 I was healed of opresion,that was from caring around unforgivness of my father,that leads to a dark place
4 when I would get home I could not do any work around the house when i would get home it felt like i was caring someone on top of me
5 I recived JOY somthing I never had the holy spirit opened my eyes and showed me the world from on top of a mountain and said to my heart that there is nothing out there that will ever satisfy(sp) you the only thing that will is a relation ship with christ you need to be made so complet in christ then and only then can you give to others,no one else will make you whole,not a wife not a girlfriend not a job not a new anything only christ as your foundation, later I found that I need to be married to christ.
so thats were im at right now 30 days after the d day
my first thoughts were great here comes wine woman and song this will be great I have been faithfull to her all this time,...then something happend...I ran to God I fell on my face I started praying all day long I continued reading the bible 1hr a day or more ....two days after she asked for it God healed me.
1 I could now see her and see how lovely she is, were before all i saw when i looked at her was unpaid bills
2 the holy spirit showed me that the whole time we were married I was trying to fit my wife (who is a strong christain)into a mold of a worldly girl and she would resist I would get mad I did not understand how to give love not as the world gives love, but by giving my self to her unselfisly
3 I was healed of opresion,that was from caring around unforgivness of my father,that leads to a dark place
4 when I would get home I could not do any work around the house when i would get home it felt like i was caring someone on top of me
5 I recived JOY somthing I never had the holy spirit opened my eyes and showed me the world from on top of a mountain and said to my heart that there is nothing out there that will ever satisfy(sp) you the only thing that will is a relation ship with christ you need to be made so complet in christ then and only then can you give to others,no one else will make you whole,not a wife not a girlfriend not a job not a new anything only christ as your foundation, later I found that I need to be married to christ.
so thats were im at right now 30 days after the d day