Haeker
08-19-2006, 10:52 AM
My mother has always taught me to pray for my future wife. One day when I was 18, I got sick and tired of the stupidity I had been going through - crushes, obsessions, lust and desire, heartbreak, all of it. So I prayed a prayer with all my heart, and it went something like this:
"Dear Lord, I'm tired of all of this worldly crap. Give me a heart for you, and give me the desires that you'd have for me."
As time went by and I enveloped myself in His word - something I hadn't done too often at that point but was quickly growing to like - a radical and powerful revelation came over me, and I realized that three visions (of sorts) would be, from then on, imprinted into my heart.
I want to serve the Lord with my life and bring others to know Him.
I want to meet and marry the woman that the Lord has for me.
I want to raise a family and bring my children up to be strong, active Christians.
To this day, the Lord is working His will in my life. The first desire has been manifesting slowly, but I see great things on the horizon - He has big plans for my life. The third will come in due time, which brings me to the second, and the reason for this post.
Until recently, I had a relationship with an amazing girl I've known for the last year and a half. Though our relationship has since ended for reasons I won't get into righ tnow, I've learned a lot about love - the real thing, and not that counterfeit gold-colored stuff they sell on the street. He infused within me His love, which knows no bounds and can withstand anything. He also showed me the quality my future wife will hold.
I'm still searching, but recently I've felt a stronger tug on my heart. As I seek God further, I also find myself searching. Is this the one? What about this one? Perhaps her? The Lord and I have been having a lot of question-and-answer sessions about this particular issue, and I've resolved myself to simply trust Him to lead her to me in time, and to prepare the both of us for each other meanwhile.
What I lack at times is patience, especially when a "potential" mate comes along. I find my heart and my emotions tugging at their respective leashes and threatening to drag me along with them. I want more than anything God's will for my life, but sometimes it's so hard to wait. While I would ask for prayer about this, I'd also like to know if anyone else has been through something similar, as well as ask if anyone has any thoughts they'd like to share. I'm always curious.
-Joshua
"Dear Lord, I'm tired of all of this worldly crap. Give me a heart for you, and give me the desires that you'd have for me."
As time went by and I enveloped myself in His word - something I hadn't done too often at that point but was quickly growing to like - a radical and powerful revelation came over me, and I realized that three visions (of sorts) would be, from then on, imprinted into my heart.
I want to serve the Lord with my life and bring others to know Him.
I want to meet and marry the woman that the Lord has for me.
I want to raise a family and bring my children up to be strong, active Christians.
To this day, the Lord is working His will in my life. The first desire has been manifesting slowly, but I see great things on the horizon - He has big plans for my life. The third will come in due time, which brings me to the second, and the reason for this post.
Until recently, I had a relationship with an amazing girl I've known for the last year and a half. Though our relationship has since ended for reasons I won't get into righ tnow, I've learned a lot about love - the real thing, and not that counterfeit gold-colored stuff they sell on the street. He infused within me His love, which knows no bounds and can withstand anything. He also showed me the quality my future wife will hold.
I'm still searching, but recently I've felt a stronger tug on my heart. As I seek God further, I also find myself searching. Is this the one? What about this one? Perhaps her? The Lord and I have been having a lot of question-and-answer sessions about this particular issue, and I've resolved myself to simply trust Him to lead her to me in time, and to prepare the both of us for each other meanwhile.
What I lack at times is patience, especially when a "potential" mate comes along. I find my heart and my emotions tugging at their respective leashes and threatening to drag me along with them. I want more than anything God's will for my life, but sometimes it's so hard to wait. While I would ask for prayer about this, I'd also like to know if anyone else has been through something similar, as well as ask if anyone has any thoughts they'd like to share. I'm always curious.
-Joshua